Night Owl 😛

Hi guys! Sorry my posts have become quite irregular, I just have so much stuff and things to be done. Nowadays though, I find myself to be the night owl. I just always am sleepy in the morning an really energetic in the night. XD Here's a little something a wrote hope you all like it. (^-^)


I've fallen in love with the moon, the darkness, and the mystery that surrounds the night.

The calmness and serenity that never appears when the morning starts.

The solitude gives me utmost happiness and joy, while crowds give me excruciating
 paranoia and anxiety.

The darkness is my comfort...

The Cherry Blossom Festival 😳

(April 18, 2016) 

I'm sorry I forgot to tell you about my wonderful and first time going to the Cherry Blossom Festival. Although it was really hot all the cos-players and food made up for it. (Sorry I don't have any pics, I've disappointed you yet again T^T)  I really loved all the commissioned artwork and the beautiful stuff they were selling.  Especially the Sailor Moon bracelet and beautiful flower crown (Photos will be shown down below) 

This is a picture of the flower crown I bought. ^-^

Bad at Math (Anyone else?)

I've always struggled with math my entire life no matter how hard I tried. I don't know, I always felt I disappointed my parents and my other classmates. They put high expectations on me just because I was Asian, I definitely had to be good at math. While it was nice that people thought I was intelligent, I was ashamed of the numbers I saw on the papers knowing I'd have to retake the quiz or test. I hated when people told me you just have to keep practicing, well when I practice no fruit bears from my labor. The same result always came up, so I became a weak, whining, child that always believes she will never accomplish anything in life. While I realize, that math is an essential part of my education I can't help but feel I would never be an expert towards it. I'm a bad kid, I shouldn't procrastinate so hard and hate my teachers for them giving me the grade that I deserve. XD

It's not only math as well, but chemistry. I just want to give up, but being a pediatrician is going to require so much time, work and effort. T^T After all nothing in life comes easy...

Mitarashi Dango 😘

Sorry if I haven't posted in a few days! I was just a little busy with school work, and hanging out with my friends. Hehe, but while hanging out with them I was able to eat one of my most favorite Japanese deserts... MITARASHI DANGO! It's like mochi with a very sweet soy sauce, and it tastes so good. I recommend trying it if you like mochi and want to try something really delicious.

Bad Eyesight 👀

I was born with my left eye slightly deformed, even though you can't quite see it. I can't really see with just my left eye. I started wearing glasses at a very young age till now. But because of my bad eyesight I can't see things from afar. I'm a bit clumsy too! 😭 Not to mention I lose my glasses so much, I'm like the Velma of the real world. 

Social Outcast 👻

I often find myself being like somewhat of a ghost at school. Maybe I need to try harder to become more outgoing but I think being funny, lovable, and the person everyone wants to be friends with is something you're born with. There's an unnatural order, when having a certain number of friends I feel, you're born lovable, beautiful, and kind. No matter how hard I try to be that girl, it's pretty impossible because I'm always going to be followed by my past as a socially awkward girl. I probably will never get past being socially awkward, but I see danger in having too many friends. Being popular means you deal with fake friends, rumors, and all types of risky business. I think I'll just stick to being a ghost. 

My Favorite Food? SASHIMI & SUSHI 🍣

*Drools*

My favorite food is, sushi (especially sashimi), onigiri, and bento boxes! Sushi is my absolute favorite food and my love. I'm sad that it's so expensive though, so every time I have it it's like a special treat. Tuna maki is my favorite and it tastes so good! Sorry, if I'm gushing sushi is just my life. It's just I don't find anyone who I can share my love with, everyone just says the cliched answer of pizza. So I guess no one can relate with me much... But there is this cool creation, called a Sushirito. Which is a sushi burrito, I think that is the coolest thing ever!

Unrequited Love 😞

I think one of the most painful feelings a person could experience is when feelings are not returned... It brings in so much sadness and torture. I liked this guy for three years now, and I felt so hopeless and breathless when I'm around him. And one of the most happiest moments, I have experienced, is that he actually asked me out. My feelings were returned, but he constantly looked at other girls and I was never good enough to hold his attention. After I risked, everything, I wasn't allowed to date, therefore I lost my parent's trust I lost my friends. I was never good enough for him. I was ignored, and I suspected he was cheating on me because he was always on his phone and so protective of it. I have no words, to explain how broken my heart is because I know I will never be good enough for anyone. I thought he was kind and would treat me like a princess but I was wrong... I was lied to and manipulated. Yet I still love him.

My Pet Rabbit Hachi 🐇

Well I'm surprised I haven't talk about one of the things that make me the happiest! And that is, my pet rabbit Hachi. He's about 9 months old now and I got him on my birthday. No, he wasn't named after the dog Hachi, I just really thought the name really suited him. Well so far, he only knows one trick and that's giving me a little kiss in the cheek when he wants a treat... (It's so hard training a bunny 😭)  Hachi is a Holland lop bunny and he is the cutest thing I've ever seen.

Some edited pictures of Hachi!

Teased at the Mall... 😿

(To anyone reading this, sorry I'm being so sad and mopey.. (>3<) )

So a very weird thing happened to me today, where I was reminded that everywhere I go people will always judge me for the clothes I wear (particularly today), the things I do, and the things I eat. I have always had issues with my weight and looks since I was a child, while going through the experiences of being bullied. The effects of bullying made me weak, and constantly depend on other peoples opinion. So on to today, I went to the mall with my family including my grandma. As we were entering the mall three girls were in front of the door way, doing typical actions of any high school girls. So I entered first, and I heard three very audible snickers I ignored it... but I had a feeling it was towards me but I brushed it off and thought it was probably nothing. Later on my grandma told me, they were pointing at my clothes and laughing I guess on how ugly they looked on me. She told them to stop and they went silent. The rest of the day for me, was full of shame for looking the way I do I felt disgusting and there was nothing anybody could do to comfort me.  Later on, we saw them again to which they mocked my grandma's voice and imitated what she said to them while laughing hysterically. They followed us around for about 20 minutes filming us on their phones, probably posting videos on Snapchat. Today isn't one of my best days, I know, but on the bright side there are people who love me enough to stand up to my bullies when I'm to weak to do it on my own.

"A lot of problems in the world would disappear if we talk to each other instead of about each other." 

Why is it that people I love the most leave? 🌸

If I truly loved someone with all my heart, why do they leave... Some humans can be cold, distant, until they need something from you. I can't help but think, I'm still a child looking for the answers to all my questions, fragile, naive, and stupid.  

"I'm loyal to whatever it is that gives me happiness, that's where my naivety comes in."  

All about Sakura's Blog! 😻

Hello welcome to my blog! My name is Sakura, I'm kinda shy meeting new people and I love anime and Japanese culture. Just so you know, my posts on my blog will be pretty random and not going to have a specific subject but I hope we can be all good friends.   I'm also very sorry, for my bad formatting and such, I'm a novice at this kind of thing... 

"If you love someone tell them... because hearts are often broken by words left unspoken."- Unknown