Senpai Noticed Me! ♱♡‿♡♰

About a few weeks ago, I started talking to my crush, from the sixth grade. We used to talk, but somewhere along the line we stopped, I really don't remember the reason why. But it was nice talking to him again, and it was a nice nostalgic feeling. We talked for hours on end, and I really loved our conversations. Each day I grew more attracted to him, his personality, his voice, his face and every thing about him. But I never thought we could ever be more than friends, that changed until he asked me out. I was so happy and excited. Of course, I said yes. I was so elated and excited for everything and the time being with him. He was so sweet... and I'm glad that we had mutual feelings.

Weird Events ✿♥‿♥✿

Well lately many weird things are happening to me since yesterday, maybe they are just coincidences but too much is happening for me to pass it off. ʕ◉ᴥ◉ʔ The first weird thing that happened was that I was sent a picture of  a frozen pig... I'd rather not post it due to it really creeping me out and really messing me up when I was just happily minding my own business. Not to mention all my old friends, have begun talking to me but oh well. I rather like the attention, since it's really been years since we all last talked. One last thing that happened was that I was tagged into a picture, of a sefie of a random woman. You may say, oh she must know me but the thing is I don't know this woman at all, and the tag is still there I'm pretty sure she would've noticed by now she doesn't know me at all.  ఠ_ఠ

Poor piggy (ಥ﹏ಥ)

How He Cheated on Me 👫 (Rant)

Well, I don't really know how to start this without being too awkward, or just spill too much of my emotions onto this blog, but I've been cheated on. And I wouldn't have been so sad, so hurt, if he didn't choose my best friend. We've grown apart but I still thought of her as my sister, someone I could trust with my deepest darkest of secrets. How he decided to do it, was quite foolish... As I knew something was going on, when he was flirting with her on the group chat we were all in. He was sending her explicit texts, and although I knew this isn't proof enough I could feel something was going on. They had a connection where I couldn't but in. After all they said their relationship was no more than just a "brother to sister" thing.

 Well unless you didn't know I'm not a fool, and that's disgusting if you're flirting with your so called "sister." Absolutely repulsive. I think now I'm more angry than I am sad now that I'm typing about it. She tried texting me about and guess who she was siding with, you got it my ex! How lovely... I confronted him about it, guess what kind of bull he told me "Oh it was just a typing error." Like what, I didn't know Samsung phones has a secret feature where it auto corrects your words into explicit pick up lines. (Boohoo) That's not how life works honey, if you wanna cheat own up to it not being an immature fool who thinks you're so slick you could get away with it... To my ex and her, I hate you both, and one day I hope you all could experience the same crap you pulled on me.

Untimely Crush

Someone once said to me, that some severed bonds are much better severed than being once again connected. At that time, I couldn't possibly understand what she could've meant, the pain of loving someone, pining after something that is way ahead from your hands. Well that was when I started talking, to him again. A very friendly relationship rekindled after a few years of not talking. We've had crushes on each other since the sixth grade, and our friendship was quite on and off until it came to the point of not talking at all. Of course it hurt for a while, after several thoughts of never being good enough, smart enough, pretty enough. It doesn't hurt me as much anymore, but I came to the thought of being together.

The fluffy feeling of being loved by him, touched by him, getting a warm hug telling me with his sweet voice that everything was going to be all right even when he and I knew it wasn't going to be. But life isn't always so romantic, so sweet, it's sometimes bitter sweet, sweet to the tongue at first and pangs of bitterness next. He was often cold and distant, we forgot each other, mannerisms, behaviors, memories faded back into the very depths of my mind. But I'm not in a great position to feel this love as I'm with someone else, to want to reconnect in a physical and mental way, to heal both scars deeply inflicted. He's a child, and so am I. But I can't help thinking what if he loved me like I loved him, maybe I wouldn't be as hurt, but for now these feelings should be buried at the depths of my heart, I couldn't do this. To love him while I'm with his best friend. Though my heart may break from this pain, no one would get hurt by my forbidden love, the taboo in today's society.

Weird Friends? ❄️

I have some weird friends... let me tell you why. Well currently I'm in a Kik group chat with several of my good friends for years. Sometimes, they are wiling to talk to me and yet sometimes they aren't. When I say something, they read it but never respond. I feel like either they're quite the fake friends and are not worth any of my time and friendship or they're just quite busy. Though I'm not quite sure what's going on... I sure hope they'll talk to me again. And I'm sorry for my post schedule becoming quite irregular. I love you guys!

My Love Affair with Korean Drama 😚

I started watching Korean drama when I was in the sixth grade and ever since then I've been obsessed. I believe my first Korean drama, was Boys over Flowers. Honestly, it's one of my favorites since it's my first. and also I believe it's an adaptation to Hana Yori Dango. The plot is basically (in the Korean version, I haven't read the manga yet so I don't know if it's the same), a girl named Jan-di is from a poor family basically gets into a school created for the wealthy of the wealthiest. She did this by saving a student, being bullied.  In this school, there is a group of four students, and they are the wealthiest people in the school Gu Jun-pyo (the leader) and his friends Yoon Ji-hoo, So Yi-jung and Song Woo-bin. Jan-di basically causes the leader to get mad at her, and his group and the whole school targets Jan-di. She basically is bullied but in a turn of events, Gu Jun-pyo falls is love with her. I recommend anyone to watch this drama, it's awesome and it such a great gateway to more awesome kdramas.

So handsome (๑♡3♡๑)

Sorry I got a bit sidetracked, it's just I love Korean drama so much! As much as I love anime.

Night Owl 😛

Hi guys! Sorry my posts have become quite irregular, I just have so much stuff and things to be done. Nowadays though, I find myself to be the night owl. I just always am sleepy in the morning an really energetic in the night. XD Here's a little something a wrote hope you all like it. (^-^)


I've fallen in love with the moon, the darkness, and the mystery that surrounds the night.

The calmness and serenity that never appears when the morning starts.

The solitude gives me utmost happiness and joy, while crowds give me excruciating
 paranoia and anxiety.

The darkness is my comfort...

The Cherry Blossom Festival 😳

(April 18, 2016) 

I'm sorry I forgot to tell you about my wonderful and first time going to the Cherry Blossom Festival. Although it was really hot all the cos-players and food made up for it. (Sorry I don't have any pics, I've disappointed you yet again T^T)  I really loved all the commissioned artwork and the beautiful stuff they were selling.  Especially the Sailor Moon bracelet and beautiful flower crown (Photos will be shown down below) 

This is a picture of the flower crown I bought. ^-^

Bad at Math (Anyone else?)

I've always struggled with math my entire life no matter how hard I tried. I don't know, I always felt I disappointed my parents and my other classmates. They put high expectations on me just because I was Asian, I definitely had to be good at math. While it was nice that people thought I was intelligent, I was ashamed of the numbers I saw on the papers knowing I'd have to retake the quiz or test. I hated when people told me you just have to keep practicing, well when I practice no fruit bears from my labor. The same result always came up, so I became a weak, whining, child that always believes she will never accomplish anything in life. While I realize, that math is an essential part of my education I can't help but feel I would never be an expert towards it. I'm a bad kid, I shouldn't procrastinate so hard and hate my teachers for them giving me the grade that I deserve. XD

It's not only math as well, but chemistry. I just want to give up, but being a pediatrician is going to require so much time, work and effort. T^T After all nothing in life comes easy...

Mitarashi Dango 😘

Sorry if I haven't posted in a few days! I was just a little busy with school work, and hanging out with my friends. Hehe, but while hanging out with them I was able to eat one of my most favorite Japanese deserts... MITARASHI DANGO! It's like mochi with a very sweet soy sauce, and it tastes so good. I recommend trying it if you like mochi and want to try something really delicious.

Bad Eyesight 👀

I was born with my left eye slightly deformed, even though you can't quite see it. I can't really see with just my left eye. I started wearing glasses at a very young age till now. But because of my bad eyesight I can't see things from afar. I'm a bit clumsy too! 😭 Not to mention I lose my glasses so much, I'm like the Velma of the real world. 

Social Outcast 👻

I often find myself being like somewhat of a ghost at school. Maybe I need to try harder to become more outgoing but I think being funny, lovable, and the person everyone wants to be friends with is something you're born with. There's an unnatural order, when having a certain number of friends I feel, you're born lovable, beautiful, and kind. No matter how hard I try to be that girl, it's pretty impossible because I'm always going to be followed by my past as a socially awkward girl. I probably will never get past being socially awkward, but I see danger in having too many friends. Being popular means you deal with fake friends, rumors, and all types of risky business. I think I'll just stick to being a ghost. 

My Favorite Food? SASHIMI & SUSHI 🍣

*Drools*

My favorite food is, sushi (especially sashimi), onigiri, and bento boxes! Sushi is my absolute favorite food and my love. I'm sad that it's so expensive though, so every time I have it it's like a special treat. Tuna maki is my favorite and it tastes so good! Sorry, if I'm gushing sushi is just my life. It's just I don't find anyone who I can share my love with, everyone just says the cliched answer of pizza. So I guess no one can relate with me much... But there is this cool creation, called a Sushirito. Which is a sushi burrito, I think that is the coolest thing ever!

Unrequited Love 😞

I think one of the most painful feelings a person could experience is when feelings are not returned... It brings in so much sadness and torture. I liked this guy for three years now, and I felt so hopeless and breathless when I'm around him. And one of the most happiest moments, I have experienced, is that he actually asked me out. My feelings were returned, but he constantly looked at other girls and I was never good enough to hold his attention. After I risked, everything, I wasn't allowed to date, therefore I lost my parent's trust I lost my friends. I was never good enough for him. I was ignored, and I suspected he was cheating on me because he was always on his phone and so protective of it. I have no words, to explain how broken my heart is because I know I will never be good enough for anyone. I thought he was kind and would treat me like a princess but I was wrong... I was lied to and manipulated. Yet I still love him.

My Pet Rabbit Hachi 🐇

Well I'm surprised I haven't talk about one of the things that make me the happiest! And that is, my pet rabbit Hachi. He's about 9 months old now and I got him on my birthday. No, he wasn't named after the dog Hachi, I just really thought the name really suited him. Well so far, he only knows one trick and that's giving me a little kiss in the cheek when he wants a treat... (It's so hard training a bunny 😭)  Hachi is a Holland lop bunny and he is the cutest thing I've ever seen.

Some edited pictures of Hachi!

Teased at the Mall... 😿

(To anyone reading this, sorry I'm being so sad and mopey.. (>3<) )

So a very weird thing happened to me today, where I was reminded that everywhere I go people will always judge me for the clothes I wear (particularly today), the things I do, and the things I eat. I have always had issues with my weight and looks since I was a child, while going through the experiences of being bullied. The effects of bullying made me weak, and constantly depend on other peoples opinion. So on to today, I went to the mall with my family including my grandma. As we were entering the mall three girls were in front of the door way, doing typical actions of any high school girls. So I entered first, and I heard three very audible snickers I ignored it... but I had a feeling it was towards me but I brushed it off and thought it was probably nothing. Later on my grandma told me, they were pointing at my clothes and laughing I guess on how ugly they looked on me. She told them to stop and they went silent. The rest of the day for me, was full of shame for looking the way I do I felt disgusting and there was nothing anybody could do to comfort me.  Later on, we saw them again to which they mocked my grandma's voice and imitated what she said to them while laughing hysterically. They followed us around for about 20 minutes filming us on their phones, probably posting videos on Snapchat. Today isn't one of my best days, I know, but on the bright side there are people who love me enough to stand up to my bullies when I'm to weak to do it on my own.

"A lot of problems in the world would disappear if we talk to each other instead of about each other." 

Why is it that people I love the most leave? 🌸

If I truly loved someone with all my heart, why do they leave... Some humans can be cold, distant, until they need something from you. I can't help but think, I'm still a child looking for the answers to all my questions, fragile, naive, and stupid.  

"I'm loyal to whatever it is that gives me happiness, that's where my naivety comes in."  

All about Sakura's Blog! 😻

Hello welcome to my blog! My name is Sakura, I'm kinda shy meeting new people and I love anime and Japanese culture. Just so you know, my posts on my blog will be pretty random and not going to have a specific subject but I hope we can be all good friends.   I'm also very sorry, for my bad formatting and such, I'm a novice at this kind of thing... 

"If you love someone tell them... because hearts are often broken by words left unspoken."- Unknown